Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Gotcha Day

   One year ago today we met our Rachel Fu Shen.  After a wait of 3 years, 9 months, and 14 days we finally became a family of four.  This was our first glimpse of Chen Fu Shen in her foster mother's arms.  She looked just like her pictures, but so much more beautiful in real life.

   When her foster mother handed her to me, Rachel's terror was so deep it almost seemed a tangible presence in the room.  She was so, so scared.  She also fought me with incredible strength.  I knew immediately that she was strong and passionate about life and not afraid to let people know what she wanted.
   By the time we left the Civil Affairs office, Rachel had calmed a little.  It was then that I learned how brave she was.  She sat on my lap in the van (it was China - carseats are unknown!) and looked out the window searching for her foster mother.  Then she would look at me and stare into my eyes with such intensity that it was difficult to maintain my gaze.  It seemed like this baby was trying to stare into my soul.  After a few moments Rachel would begin to sob again.  And then she's start all over. 

   Back at the hotel Rachel stopped crying and studied us all.  She seemed to understand that her world had suddenly changed and that we were now the people in charge.  She accepted her fate and set out to make the best of it.  Within hours she was smiling, laughing, and showing off.  I began to see what a happy, funny girl my Rachel was.  By bedtime Rachel was calling me "Mama" and cuddling in my lap.  And I had fallen in love with her.  Totally, madly in love.  It would take time for the rest of the family to make her theirs, but I already loved her with a fierceness  that amazed me. 

   And now a whole year has past.  An incredible, amazing year.  It's hard to believe one little girl could change so much in just one year!  Rachel is still strong and passionate and brave and funny.  She is our Sunshine Girl and she has filled the empty spots in my life in ways I never dreamed.  Rachel's Chinese name, Fu Shen, translates into something like "never-ending happiness" and that is certainly what she is.  Happy Gotcha Day Rachel Fu Shen!

1 comment:

  1. Happy Adoption Day!! Your daughters are both beautiful. The photo of you and Rachel (crying) just tugged at my heart...remembering that my son cried so hard as well.

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